[ Zhongli is really being quite unfair if he were to stop and think about it. He had already disrupted the Harbinger's life by showing up here unannounced with some incurable ailment. He had already used up more than his fair share of Childe's generosity by being cared for and offering little compensation in return. Classic classic Zhongli to expect others to provide for him and his lavish lifestyle without a care for burdens placed upon their shoulders of as a result. Selfish. Selfish and unfair.
But Zhongli can't be bothered by those thoughts when Childe's lips press eagerly against his. Can't be bothered by trying to not impose even more on the other as he wraps his arms around Childe's shoulders and kisses back forcefully, savoring the taste of him. In this slightly awkward position of Childe still nestled in his lap, the two inevitably go tumbling to one side of the couch, the back of Zhongli's carefully pressed suit wrinkling Tonia's already crumpled outer wear. Ah, what a first impression to make (if this can be called a first impression since Tonia spoke of Zhongli as if she already knew him.)
Zhongli would not consider himself shy but he is definitely inexperienced in this (or really any) act of passion. Strange how he cannot remember being physically intimate with another - not even anything as scandalous as holding hands. He cannot even remember being attracted to anyone before Childe - his passionate carefree generous and feral "business partner". Surely he must have suspected he had grown feelings for the other before the Harbinger was forced to leave Liyue. But then why— why did he wait so long to act upon it. Wait until the communication had dried up for years before coming.
Zhongli doesn't know. Doesn't know even though the ache in the back of his mind warns him that this has something to do with his faded memories. Warns him that thinking on it too long or too hard will result in probably unfortunate consequences.
So maybe it's less that Zhongli does not know and more that Zhongli does not want to know. And that's all right by him. Why worry about such matters when it appears that Childe is eager to be a willing participant in what they both want?
So instead of worrying, Zhongli nips at the flesh of Childe's lower lip, arms tightening around him to pull him down down down until there is no space left between them.
(Let me stay with you. Let me find solace in your soul. I feel so incomplete without you.) ]
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But Zhongli can't be bothered by those thoughts when Childe's lips press eagerly against his. Can't be bothered by trying to not impose even more on the other as he wraps his arms around Childe's shoulders and kisses back forcefully, savoring the taste of him. In this slightly awkward position of Childe still nestled in his lap, the two inevitably go tumbling to one side of the couch, the back of Zhongli's carefully pressed suit wrinkling Tonia's already crumpled outer wear. Ah, what a first impression to make (if this can be called a first impression since Tonia spoke of Zhongli as if she already knew him.)
Zhongli would not consider himself shy but he is definitely inexperienced in this (or really any) act of passion. Strange how he cannot remember being physically intimate with another - not even anything as scandalous as holding hands. He cannot even remember being attracted to anyone before Childe - his passionate carefree generous and feral "business partner". Surely he must have suspected he had grown feelings for the other before the Harbinger was forced to leave Liyue. But then why— why did he wait so long to act upon it. Wait until the communication had dried up for years before coming.
Zhongli doesn't know. Doesn't know even though the ache in the back of his mind warns him that this has something to do with his faded memories. Warns him that thinking on it too long or too hard will result in probably unfortunate consequences.
So maybe it's less that Zhongli does not know and more that Zhongli does not want to know. And that's all right by him. Why worry about such matters when it appears that Childe is eager to be a willing participant in what they both want?
So instead of worrying, Zhongli nips at the flesh of Childe's lower lip, arms tightening around him to pull him down down down until there is no space left between them.
(Let me stay with you. Let me find solace in your soul. I feel so incomplete without you.) ]