[ It would be hard to describe if Ajax were asked. What does jealousy have to do with romance. Perhaps it's not jealousy he meant, but simple pining for what you can't have. It's simultaneously easy to feel both for the youkai, and easy to see them as too similar from feeling it through others negative memories to understand one without the other.
In truth, stories that entertain are all he has to go by, what represents the ideal, and he doesn't see them as simply entertainment. Surely if so many love such things, there must be something real and worth coveting there, right? In order to work through such things, though, Ajax would have to better explain himself and what he is to Zhongli.
... And that's something that he isn't interested in at all, especially when he just wants Zhongli to like him and like him some more.
To his relief, Zhongli doesn't press (despite Ajax being pretty sure his excuse was seen right though.) In fact, the change in Zhongli's methods are sweet because he so willingly cares to Ajax's request despite the little fox making rather light of this whole thing as it being not very serious in any way.
(It's very serious to him, even if he himself doesn't know it himself yet, though.
But he knows it's serious to Zhongli.)
Oh, but the adeptus caters so wonderfully, how can Ajax not adore him and be envious of the one who wins his heart? Zhongli can't understand because it's he himself, that's all. He would need to find someone that made him feel the same ways, and maybe Zhongli just isn't easily swayed by emotions to fall victim to them easily.
The kitsune can't help the shiver that courses through him as teeth graze his neck, as he hears that sound come from the other, as touches him more concretely, a touch Ajax can burn into his mind as real rather than a fairytale long after the other returns to Liyue. The restraint is so admirable, too— he knows someone who Zhongli will spend so much more time with than the two of them will ever have together will no doubt appreciate it immensely and give it in turn. But Ajax has been so deprived of such things (all things) that he wants to feel the ranges of passion first. If only they had enough time, though, he would happily take it all and give it back in spades.
His tails can't be so distinctively possessive in the same way as the adeptus's, but that doesn't prevent his tails from doing what they can to have the other feel welcomed and encouraged and most certainly desired. Perhaps a heat started this, but thanks to the other easing the neediness before they continued, nothing about the touches from Ajax now, tails or otherwise, suggest this encounter is the result of a biological mechanism. He's attentive, very much focused on what makes the other twitch in any way versus not much at all, even as he struggles to not get lost in Zhongli's own touches.
His breath catches, the sound from it not at all exaggerated. He is clearly smitten and pleased with the other's efforts, enough that he doesn't even attempt to cover it up with anything dramatized in his responses. Instead, one of his tails brushes against the golden shell of the adeptus's antlers, stroking and caressing the very shape they take, the pressure applied depreciate like touching something truly priceless. For the kitsune, they are part of his current bedmate, one he's absolutely infatuated with in every way, so of course every part of him is priceless.
When he replies, his voice is quiet and shared between them, a lilt of amusement strung through the words spoken— ]
You only think such things because you don't realize how gorgeous and incredibly sexy you are. I want to see every side I possibly can of you, whether you're in control or not~.
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In truth, stories that entertain are all he has to go by, what represents the ideal, and he doesn't see them as simply entertainment. Surely if so many love such things, there must be something real and worth coveting there, right? In order to work through such things, though, Ajax would have to better explain himself and what he is to Zhongli.
... And that's something that he isn't interested in at all, especially when he just wants Zhongli to like him and like him some more.
To his relief, Zhongli doesn't press (despite Ajax being pretty sure his excuse was seen right though.) In fact, the change in Zhongli's methods are sweet because he so willingly cares to Ajax's request despite the little fox making rather light of this whole thing as it being not very serious in any way.
(It's very serious to him, even if he himself doesn't know it himself yet, though.
But he knows it's serious to Zhongli.)
Oh, but the adeptus caters so wonderfully, how can Ajax not adore him and be envious of the one who wins his heart? Zhongli can't understand because it's he himself, that's all. He would need to find someone that made him feel the same ways, and maybe Zhongli just isn't easily swayed by emotions to fall victim to them easily.
The kitsune can't help the shiver that courses through him as teeth graze his neck, as he hears that sound come from the other, as touches him more concretely, a touch Ajax can burn into his mind as real rather than a fairytale long after the other returns to Liyue. The restraint is so admirable, too— he knows someone who Zhongli will spend so much more time with than the two of them will ever have together will no doubt appreciate it immensely and give it in turn. But Ajax has been so deprived of such things (all things) that he wants to feel the ranges of passion first. If only they had enough time, though, he would happily take it all and give it back in spades.
His tails can't be so distinctively possessive in the same way as the adeptus's, but that doesn't prevent his tails from doing what they can to have the other feel welcomed and encouraged and most certainly desired. Perhaps a heat started this, but thanks to the other easing the neediness before they continued, nothing about the touches from Ajax now, tails or otherwise, suggest this encounter is the result of a biological mechanism. He's attentive, very much focused on what makes the other twitch in any way versus not much at all, even as he struggles to not get lost in Zhongli's own touches.
His breath catches, the sound from it not at all exaggerated. He is clearly smitten and pleased with the other's efforts, enough that he doesn't even attempt to cover it up with anything dramatized in his responses. Instead, one of his tails brushes against the golden shell of the adeptus's antlers, stroking and caressing the very shape they take, the pressure applied depreciate like touching something truly priceless. For the kitsune, they are part of his current bedmate, one he's absolutely infatuated with in every way, so of course every part of him is priceless.
When he replies, his voice is quiet and shared between them, a lilt of amusement strung through the words spoken— ]
You only think such things because you don't realize how gorgeous and incredibly sexy you are. I want to see every side I possibly can of you, whether you're in control or not~.