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[ Ironically, it means very little outside that Zhongli (being the rock that he is) is both less physically affected but such things as pheromones and aphrodisiacs. This is further stifled by millennia of Zhongli ignoring his own personal wants and desires in favor of what was always best for Liyue. Physical intimacy for the sake of physical intimacy did lose its spark over time. Enough that Zhongli had shelved most of these feelings (except for a few exceptional occassions) once he ascended as an Archon.

Ajax should be proud that he is managing to move this old boulder at all. Affection and physical intimacy does not come easy to him. Indulging a desire that is wholly personal and selfish — was a truly rare feat indeed. ]

I'm being as kind as you deserve, Ajax.

[ Zhongli kisses back, sweetly and a little reserved. He was being very honest when he said he wanted for them to take their time and enjoy each other. Surely when their passions (or maybe just Ajax's impatience) ignited, it would be hard to stop their momentum. So these softer moments should be treasured before they worked themselves up to that point.

And so Zhongli kisses him just enough to leave him breathless, all while his fingers find a steady rhythm that will bring the fox youkai pleasantly over the edge. Not too rough and not meant to be denying him his pleasure. Zhongli was a very particular individual after all. ]

Has no one properly made love to you before?

[ it will all make much more sense to him once he understands Zhongli's constitution (—probably, anyway.)

He doesn't expect the kiss to be so enjoyable. Zhongli's mouth tastes... like something to him that he feels he should know, but he can't put his finger on it. Not that his mind is able to really process such levels of cognition as he's kissed. The sweetness is indeed enough to keep him breathless and overwhelmed with his other ministrations. He really wants it— really wants Zhongli so much that it consumes any attempt at keeping his head above water. The lack of air is just enough that when the adeptus gets him to spill, the orgasm feels much better than he's ever recalled having. It's not particularly hard or intense, but something about it still feels really ... delicious is maybe the word he would use if he had to describe it. He isn't able to moan out Zhongli's name when he climaxes, but it's not from a lack of wanting to. The brief involuntary sound that escapes his throat one of uncontrollable pleasure, and for a few seconds after, Ajax feels like he's sinking into a pool of water and about to float. Breath ragged as he tries to fill his lungs, he is only brought back to the surface of the moment with the soothing sound of Zhongli's voice as he asks the question. If he were not affected by the climax high, he surely would have tried to stumble around such a question. Even he knows that he should be embarrassed talking so openly about things, and that includes if it's only in private to a single person.

Instead, as his clinging starts to loosen some with him getting at least some relief from his heat, he replies with a soft chuckle, gently amused. ]

No. Why would they?

[ there's no self-depreciation in his words. He seems to be pleasantly bemused in a very light-hearted way that such a question would be asked. That's not to say the question is awkward to him, either: no, it's actually somewhat flattering from his point of view because— ]

Do I seem like the kind of person that would have an experience like that?

[ it must be a compliment! And if it's not ... well his brazen kitsune ego will make it one just fine on its own, too.

His hands momentarily wander gently and curiously over Zhongli's upper back and shoulders as if committing every inch to memory. He feels a little less desperate now (is that the result of the other's intention to take the edge off?) but far from satisfied. Ah, how strange to not feel that overwhelming primal instinct so strongly it takes over every other sensibility from the getgo but still able to desire to experience it still! (He must like Zhongli very much.) It can't just be physical attraction, can it? He's never done this with any others that he's come in contact with. Not that any of them were even close to Zhongli in any way, shape, or form, but surely if it was just physical he would have not been particularly picky about who he satisfied his urge with. Considering he doesn't remember any such thing ever crossing his mind nevermind an actual heat manifesting in the presence of others, that seems like a safe conclusion.

(Oh, so he really likes Zhongli.)

Now if only he had the slightest idea of what that statement actually means for them both and individually, especially since he's not silly enough to hope Zhongli likes him in any way like that, too. ]

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[ Zhongli huffs a breath through his nose, somewhere between huffed and pleased at how clingy Ajax is being. ]

There's my good boy.

[ He brushes the sweat-soaked hair away from his forehead, kissing his brow as Ajax loses himself in the sensations. It's nice. This is nice. To be able to take care of another. To take care of Ajax as Ajax had been taking care of him. ]

You did so very well.

[ There's a small knit of concern between his brows that Ajax has not yet had this experience with another. Physical intercourse is certainly not unknown to him with how smoothly he had approached Zhongli. Shameless, but only in so much as he was not embarrassed about expressing his own needs. Surely, there should be others that have wanted to reciprocate the boy's kindness.

But ah, perhaps he was being a bit presumptuous. Ajax could be a little pushy. Maybe he never gave his other partner's a chance to treat him in this way.

Once he's settled, Zhongli sits up a bit. He reaches for Ajax's calves, pressing a kiss to each of his inner ankles before hiking them over his shoulders. Ajax had been clear in what he wanted (and it is what Zhongli wants as well). There was no need to deny him of anything. ]

I would not know. I have never met anyone quite like you, Ajax.

[ Or perhaps he had not had the time to indulge in a such a relationship with another like this. Zhongli had befriended many— mortal and adepti alike. He'd also known dozens of fox youkai in his lifetime. He's met hundreds of eager young men, brash and brilliant in their overconfidence. Hundreds more who looked to him for guidance and stability, something he always strived to provide to those under his care.

But Ajax was different.

Ajax looked at him and saw only Zhongli. Ajax . It feels a bit disingenuous to hide his true identity from him. But does it really matter? Since he cast off that life. Folded it neatly and set it aside never to be worn again.

Why should Zhongli feel guilty for living such a life? ]

[ ah, Zhongli must have well figured out Ajax has a praise kink— which is just fine for the little fox as he lets such things affect him without restraint. There's a small keening noise from the youkai as he slips his hands to cup Zhongli's face affectionately all the while making sure he is quite pliable and makes it easy for the other to get them both into whatever position desired. Nevertheless, Ajax wants to stare up at those beautiful eyes. Here he can pretend that he has time for such intimacy and can easily step away from the outside world to put aside time for things like this. ]

You're so beautiful, Zhongli. Perfect in every way. [ there's a soft laugh despite his neediness still echoing rawly. ] I'm so jealous of the person that will be blessed with loving you and being loved by you in return~. So, just for a few hours, I'm going to pretend that person is me, I hope you won't mind too much.

[ if Zhongli lets him, he'll coax the other forward (not caring at all if that has his legs being pushed back what with them on the others shoulders currently) so Ajax can kiss those pretty lips again. It's a much more controlled and affectionate kiss that isn't driven by frenzied lust and, instead, is a less debased sensual passion. It lacks nothing despite being solely focused between their lips and tongue. ]

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[ Ah. Now this. This was something that gives Zhongli more pause, even as he still has Ajax poised in a position meant to further continue their lovemaking. Unfortunately, he will have to wait a little longer as Zhongli presses a kiss to his forehead, his own brow creased, as he says very seriously: ]

I care for you, and unless I am mistaken, you reserve the same fondness for me. There is nothing for you to be jealous of. Each bond a person makes in their life is special and unique. There is no need to compare it to others.

[ It's a dangerous mix — self-loathing mixed with jealousy. Feed into it too much and one validates it like a drug hiding the symptoms instead of the cure. Ignore it, and those unfounded accusations will ring like truths in the person's mind.

Many people had fallen to one of the two ailments. Many more had made poor decisions as a result of them.

Even though Zhongli will not be in Inazuma for long, as Ajax's friend and due to his very godly nature, he cannot leave without at least attempting to change the young youkai's worldview. If he doesn't— is there anyone in Ajax's life who could pick up such a mantle?

Probably not. And isn't that the most lonely feeling of all. ]

[ Ajax smiles affectionately at the other, moving to touch their noses together briefly in response. A very gentle sigh escapes the fox youkai, and his tone is sweet. ]

Oh, sensei, you really... know how to block every intimate advance in the book, don't you~? Don't take me so seriously, its not supposed to concern you like this; it's supposed to be romantic and make you feel special and wanted and passionate about me, you know?

[ he says it so cheerfully, with amusement playing in his expression that it can't even be said he sounds annoyed. He even thinks Zhongli is quite cute in how seriously he takes these things and keeps dodging so successfully as an unintended(?) result. ]

You can relax. You don't have to handle me as if I'm so fragile. I'm not misconstruing anything here, I just want to feel good with you and get you to loosen up some. I feel very blessed to be cared for by you when I care in the same way. There's nothing better than a bond being equal and reciprocated.

[ his tails brush along Zhongli but not in an attempt to arouse him. They are comforting, offering reassurance so the adeptus doesn't feel like he needs to be so concerned or that any of this is required. it's okay, it's okay.

There's a bit of a pout now that forms, though, as he lets his head hit the futon. ]

Still, I'm definitely gonna get a complex if you don't at least start pretending you're a little wooed by me, though~. I was going for 'enthralled,' but I'll take what I can get, I'm really not picky so long c as you like it, too. You can easily do a little acting for the overall fun of tonight, right?

[ Even these complaints are playful, and Ajax is very persistent. A less stubborn individual... of any species, really, probably would have given up by now.

More sincerely now, the pout lessens as he brushes the back of his knuckles along the side of Zhongli's cheek. ]

Thank you for worrying about me. This time with you really is more than perfect for me.

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[ Once again, Zhongli blinks down at Ajax with an inscrutable gaze, the gears in his head turning with an almost audible grind. He's unsure of what Ajax is not misconstruing which makes the reassurance flimsy at best. Nor does he understand how feelings of jealousy and thus the accompanying tangle of issues thereafter are special and romantic.

Well, no— that's not quite true. He knows what they mean in literature, in plays and dramas and the retelling of poets. But that is for the benefit of the audience; the gift of entertainment. Those lines of reasoning have no place here where Zhongli is doing his best to cultivate a safe and honest space for Ajax.

Ah, what a bother.

But fortunately, Ajax provides him with a simple and elegant solution to this conundrum. To show that he is properly wooed by Ajax (for Zhongli does not need to act, he is quite charmed). And that is something he can easily do for the fox youkai.

Zhongli's tail wraps around one of the calves thrown over his shoulder, pulled taut to keep Ajax fully exposed in front of Zhongli. One hand presses at the fox's hip and the other the small of his back — all to keep his hips angled in just the way Zhongli likes. (Or what he thinks Ajax might like or think is properly possessive. Zhongli likes Ajax in any and all ways, after all.)

The kisses pressed to Ajax's lips now moved to the side of his throat, a hint of sharp canines and the rumble of a dragon accompanying the now rougher touches. The fluff of his tail thumps against the bare skin of Ajax's leg as he molds the younger into the exact position that he wants.

Yes.

Yes, Zhongli could act like that if that is what Ajax wanted. ]

Ajax.

[ The tone is breathier than before, the concern and tranquility sheered away from something more raw underneath. ]

I do not think you want to see me lose control.

[ It would be hard to describe if Ajax were asked. What does jealousy have to do with romance. Perhaps it's not jealousy he meant, but simple pining for what you can't have. It's simultaneously easy to feel both for the youkai, and easy to see them as too similar from feeling it through others negative memories to understand one without the other.

In truth, stories that entertain are all he has to go by, what represents the ideal, and he doesn't see them as simply entertainment. Surely if so many love such things, there must be something real and worth coveting there, right? In order to work through such things, though, Ajax would have to better explain himself and what he is to Zhongli.

... And that's something that he isn't interested in at all, especially when he just wants Zhongli to like him and like him some more.

To his relief, Zhongli doesn't press (despite Ajax being pretty sure his excuse was seen right though.) In fact, the change in Zhongli's methods are sweet because he so willingly cares to Ajax's request despite the little fox making rather light of this whole thing as it being not very serious in any way.

(It's very serious to him, even if he himself doesn't know it himself yet, though.

But he knows it's serious to Zhongli.)

Oh, but the adeptus caters so wonderfully, how can Ajax not adore him and be envious of the one who wins his heart? Zhongli can't understand because it's he himself, that's all. He would need to find someone that made him feel the same ways, and maybe Zhongli just isn't easily swayed by emotions to fall victim to them easily.

The kitsune can't help the shiver that courses through him as teeth graze his neck, as he hears that sound come from the other, as touches him more concretely, a touch Ajax can burn into his mind as real rather than a fairytale long after the other returns to Liyue. The restraint is so admirable, too— he knows someone who Zhongli will spend so much more time with than the two of them will ever have together will no doubt appreciate it immensely and give it in turn. But Ajax has been so deprived of such things (all things) that he wants to feel the ranges of passion first. If only they had enough time, though, he would happily take it all and give it back in spades.

His tails can't be so distinctively possessive in the same way as the adeptus's, but that doesn't prevent his tails from doing what they can to have the other feel welcomed and encouraged and most certainly desired. Perhaps a heat started this, but thanks to the other easing the neediness before they continued, nothing about the touches from Ajax now, tails or otherwise, suggest this encounter is the result of a biological mechanism. He's attentive, very much focused on what makes the other twitch in any way versus not much at all, even as he struggles to not get lost in Zhongli's own touches.

His breath catches, the sound from it not at all exaggerated. He is clearly smitten and pleased with the other's efforts, enough that he doesn't even attempt to cover it up with anything dramatized in his responses. Instead, one of his tails brushes against the golden shell of the adeptus's antlers, stroking and caressing the very shape they take, the pressure applied depreciate like touching something truly priceless. For the kitsune, they are part of his current bedmate, one he's absolutely infatuated with in every way, so of course every part of him is priceless.

When he replies, his voice is quiet and shared between them, a lilt of amusement strung through the words spoken— ]

You only think such things because you don't realize how gorgeous and incredibly sexy you are. I want to see every side I possibly can of you, whether you're in control or not~.

[ Zhongli pulls back to blink large gold eyes at Ajax for now it was his turned to be confused about the other's words. While many historians and scholars had called Zhongli gorgeous and the even braver one's denoted him as sexy, he cannot recall a single instance where such words were told directly to his face. Intriguing. Another slow blink clearly shows he's not sure what to make of it.

Then the hint of a devious smile tugs at the corner of his lips. ]

Such a greedy little fox.

[ It's said more to himself than anything, even if such a phrase could be easily worked into dirty talk if Zhongli knew how to accomplish such a feat.

But ah, perhaps it does not matter that Zhongli does not dwell on that for his occupied with two very important tasks. One is to turn his head and press an affectionate kiss against the tail brushing against his antlers. They are very sensitive, even to the soft caress of the fox's silky fur.

(Hmmm, is it fair that Ajax has so many extra appendages? It surely prevents him from being held down in the way he seems to want. But that is a thought for another time.) ]

You should really learn to savor that which you devour.

[ The other task, of course, is to brace his weight against Ajax's body, pinning him in all the right places so that he might slip inside his already warm and waiting entrance. Following the proper rules of "possessiveness", he does not prep the other, letting the slick and fluids from their previous intercourse ease the passage. Zhongli presses until hips are flush to Ajax's backside, that smile of his turning up at the corners just a little it more upon completion. ]

Perhaps that is also something I can teach you.

[ Well, Ajax won't argue about his greediness. It's very obvious and kitsune don't really have much remorse for being greedy just like they don't have any for being manipulative troublemakers to entertain themselves. Still, he looks a little shy when his tail gets kissed, but he's also very happy that Zhongli doesn't seem adverse to the touch.

He looks curious about being told to savor things, but that expression is easily replaced by him trembling and his breath picking up at being entered. It doesn't hurt, but the feeling is overwhelming. As much as he likes it, being so connected with something he's used to. This is very different from the usual 'satisfy carnal urges' events he participates in when he has to. ]

A... haha, I think I would... enjoy that. [ he already enjoys any and all time with Zhongli, though, of course. ]

[ A hand moves to press in between them, fingers tracing over where their two bodies are joined. He never looks away from Ajax — not when he becomes shy and flustered and not when he is expressing his pleasure — intense as the sun surveying the world below. ]

I want you, Ajax.

[ And he pulls back, just to sink in deeper with the same fluid motion. ]

Did you still doubt that?

[ Even for someone as self-depreciating as Ajax, it's impossible not to smell the other's desire, to sense it fully as a result of being in heat to begin with. A gasp escapes him as Zhongli pulls back only to thrust back in. It causes Ajax's entire body to clench and twist in pleasure. ]

No ... I... can smell it ... [ he replies, feeling embarrassed to have doubted but also overwhelmed by the idea of someone he's infatuated with having this desire towards him.

It feels amazing though, in more ways than one.]

Oh? Can you?

[ He places a kiss against Ajax's lips then, gentle and fond in comparison to the rough and steady pace of their coupling. And the pace Zhongli does set is forceful — Ajax had requested Zhongli's desire after all, and it seemed that his softer subtler shows of affection were not what he was looking for.

But ah— Zhongli did so love to offer people the gentleness and kindness that they thought they did not want or did not deserve. And arrogant as the ex-god is, it is difficult — almost impossible — to not push those desires onto another. ]

Can you keep your eyes on me then? I would like to see your pleasure.

[ Something about the gentleness with the backdrop of roughness makes it feel that much better. So there's no complaint from him, returning the kiss almost innocently. When asked to keep his eyes on Zhongli, Ajax nods, letting his lust-filled eyes watch Zhongli through slightly lowered eyelids. The further they go the harder it is to stay focused, but he makes sure not to turn his head away.

It's easy, really. Zhongli is so pleasing on the eyes Ajax is happy to have a reason to stare. ]

You're beautiful.

[ Zhongli mutters absently as he worries a mark against the side of Ajax's neck, leaving the skin red and sensitive but very careful as to not break the skin. His thoughts do wander into marking Ajax as that seems to aligned with what he wants. But to do so carelessly is not something Zhongli can bring himself to do even if it would fit seamlessly into this roleplay. So instead he shifts to make similar marks across his collarbone. ]

A treasure and something precious.

[ All the same, he does not pause in his pace. Steady but relentless to ensure that Ajax's next pleasure is as predictable as it is inevitable. Even if Zhongli would like nothing more than to see the fox in the throes of passion.

Tonight would be an exercise in patience. Patience for Ajax and patience for himself. ]

I want to see you. All of you. Test your limits and then see you surpass them.

[ Ajax wishes he understood the intent behind Zhongli's words. Perhaps it's simply that Zhongli doesn't know any better what Ajax really is to want to see all of him. If he did, surely he wouldn't have such praise like that to express, right? Maybe, it's just a fleeting form of beauty, a momentary point in time where he is precious because they are riding this raw intensity wavelength together.

(Or maybe every single thing Zhongli said is sincere and true than anything Ajax has ever known. But Ajax feels something in his chest twist unpleasantly at the consideration, because that is infinitely the worst of the two possibilities, isn't it? Zhongli won't stay. For The fox that has known so very little, these past many hours that barely add up to two days feel like his entire lifetime. Zhongli means everything to him in that span of time. But for Zhongli, even the kidding knows that it's not even a long time for a human, nevermind an adeptus or yokai.)

He doesn't want to run this all with his mind drifting to places he shouldn't do he focuses on Zhongli, make it his priority to do and give everything the adeptus wants from him. Even if he doesn't know how, he'll learn just to be able to give it to Zhongli.

Breath heavy, he feels an insatiable need to want to touch the other even if he agreed to let Zhongli do everything. Feeling Zhongli inside of him is incredible but surreal, and he wants to cling and touch and pleasure the other as much as he wants to feel it.

Patience really is oh so difficult for Ajax when what he wants is so close to his reach. ]

[ Zhongli maintains that pace, one quirked eyebrow watching the myriad of expressions crossing Ajax's face even as he tries to decipher their meaning. In the haze of his own pleasure and the youkai's pheromones this becomes an impossible task. Best just to focus on keeping this memories to examine at a much later time.

And it had been so long since Zhongli had felt the warmth and comfort of another. And never had he felt such an emotion in his mortal life— free to choose a partner just because he had feelings for them rather than perform the complex calculations of how such a coupling might affect Liyue and its people.

The soft kisses move to Ajax's cheek. His temple. His eyelids. The curve of his jaw. All while the ever steady pace of mountains presses into him relentlessly until he gives into the pleasure. ]

[ it's easy—too easy to fall into Zhongli's pace until he knows nothing else. so easy to forget everything else except the adeptus and what they're sharing together in this moment.

Ajax welcomes the haze that clouds out everything else. It helps him relax with Zhongli, helps his thrusts all feel that much better inside of Ajax. His expression loses the signs of any turmoil or conflict that may have been present in favor of simple and pure desire and the enjoyment of the pleasure he's being given. it feels so ... so so damn good, he doesn't want it to ever end.

When he can, he'll nip or kiss at Zhongli's skin wherever he can reach without interfering in letting Zhongli have control or violate his agreement to let the other do everything— he's far enough gone now that it isn't feeling like he is not giving enough in exchange to the other or any other self-conscious worries like that.

Ajax never stops watching Zhongli, though. His blue eyes glassy and heavy with lust and pleasure, he whispers hotly against the adeptus's ear when possible about how good it feels, to keep thrusting just so when he feels a delicious spot hit, and his body responds so very sensually to Zhongli like he's been made to enjoy whatever is given to him by this individual at the most extreme possible level of delight. ]

Please... Oh... like that...! Ah—!

[ Ajax's breath hitches sharply as he feels the sudden pressure build exponentially, his sounds becoming more desperate. Although he'll try and resist climaxing as he doesn't want it to end, Zhongli's relentless pace will make any attempt to resist crumble completely quite quickly. He'll squirm, trembling as he's dragged to the apex of pleasure and forced over the edge into orgasm. He can't remember that last time he felt one so intense and satisfying as this with such incredibly bone-level deep levels of satiation to his neediness.

His heat dissipates and he finds himself only able to focus on making sure Zhongli finds his own pleasure now. And once he does, Ajax will revel in that, too. ]

[ It's quite a different experience — to be responsible for one instead of a whole nation. To be able to have the time and dedication to watch each expression that flits across Ajax's features, watch each tremble and shiver, and hear each sweet word that tumbles from his lips whether it makes sense or not.

Just as Ajax never stops watching Zhongli, Zhongli never stops watching Ajax. Each reaction is coveted and stored away to be kept as a priceless treasure long after the two of them have parted. And so it is under the ex-Archon's scrutinizing gaze that he finds his pleasure. And it is in his arms that Zhongli holds him through it, clutching Ajax tightly until the last shiver courses through his body and his is left pliant and boneless against the soft fabric. ]

Beautiful.

[ Zhongli says again, stilling his own movements and pausing his own pleasure so that he may press a chaste kiss to Ajax's lips. ]

Did you enjoy that?

[ Ajax hums softly in response to the question. it's very easy to tell he did enjoy that very much, his cheeks flushed but his lips move freely to kiss back in the same manner it's given. One of his tails moves to brush against Zhongli's cheek affectionately before reaching over the shell of his ear and the slope of his neck. Although he's already been taken care of, still relishing in the high of his orgasm, there's a nice tingle of not pleasure but something equally good-feeling that course through him as he feels out Zhongli through his fur rather than his skin. Perhaps it's simply the feeling of the other being there and being able to identify him as solid and real still. He doesn't want to find his grounding back in reality just yet, far too content to linger in the limbo between lucidity and the pleasure-induced haze of relaxation, but it's still wonderful to feel this person is currently present. Closing his eyes a moment he finally opens them again just as another tail slips around the nape old Zhongli neck to tug him back closer if he happened to go to pull back after the kids or simply encourage to keep him there as the total finally speaks with some semblance of sense again. ]

Very much. Now it's your turn to show me your expressions while you enjoy, hm~?

[ he's teasing... kind of, anyway. those eyes of his are very intrigued, as if anticipating something and it's certainly not simply to see how Zhongli might react to his words.]

Edited 2025-01-27 03:52 (UTC)